Tape 2, Side B : Definitely Bullying

And so i joined in on the wagon watching 13 Reasons Why. It peaked my curiosity when it started becoming controversial. 


It has been a mystery to me how people can think of ending their own lives. But over time I have given it a crack to seep through my system that this world has such people. Thus says Zarathustra, right?

While I was watching tape 2, the episode clearly delivers how bullying – the non physical, violent type – plays on nowadays. Bullying was not ever alien or unfamiliar. I think a society without it would probably be a boring one. Wait. Please do not think I tolerate bullying in any form. I am totally against it. I am totally against not knowing when teasing gets overboard. 

We all get teased at some point and there are puns and jokes that snaps us off. You know how kids go from laughing and running around one minute and then in an instant someone starts screaming and the fight starts? I think it grows from that. I mean we all had that bout of the swift switch of pleasant becoming unpleasant in an instant. 

I do not take suicide lightly. Every time i hear one, i wonder where were this person’s friends? Not an accusation. Just a bewildered wondering of how come no one noticed. And then i got to think of the type of people who i know do or did suicides. 

We have the religious ones, the cultural ones, the philosophized, the tired, the bullied, the average.. and there are just no real common ground there. And I guess we would never really know. I don’t think the doers ever thought they even can hurt themselves.

I remember Littleton Colorado – the Columbine Massacre. I did a research on it way back. And I got reminded about it in 13 Reasons Why. Only, in 13 Reasons Why, Hannah did not use guns and trenchcoats  – she did tapes. Tapes that slowly messes up the psyche of anyone listening to it. 

I think the episode centers on the reality that bullying ruins a teenagers’ mental health, seeps through their emotions making them feel like trash. I heard people say that it is a reason too shallow. I think if it brings a person to decide to commit suicide, then i guess it is not shallow after all. If the person managed to bring up 13 Reasons Why they opted to kill themselves then I guess the person was keeping all these inside while trying to look normal and still be fighting whatever battle until 13 rounds later, life knocks them out.. or they knock life out of themselves. 

So look at the normal kid beside you that you plan on teasing or making fun of or spread a secret about. Before you add a drop of playful pain,  be cautious. Their response may not be your responsibility, but the first move is always yours. 

Choose the option of self-control. 


In 2015 : Dream….

Outro to 2014, I think I’ve been encouraged to imagine. I need to stimulate my imagination of the better things God has in store for me. It is one learning i got from the book : “Relationships : A Mess Worth Making”

And the intro to going back to my Bible plans talks about daydreaming. I guess I’ve been lazy and discouraged enough like any other human cycle for drama before that I settled for whatever comes. Although easy acceptance and settling seems to be peaceful I guess it deteriorates the potential for JOY IN THE MOMENT.

Peace and joy together with love should be working in harmony. I should be day dreaming and stimulating hope. If my peace paralyzes me from enjoying what God has prepared for me for the day (which is not entirely for me but for everyone I interact with also), I break-even the power of the Holy Spirit in me. By break-even I mean I hinder the Holy Spirit to work fully in me.

If I do believe that the God I hold on to has a plan for me, indeed, then from where I stand (or sit as I type) I should be excited to confide with Him what I see – whether dark, glum or perfectly wonderful. And I should also be holding on to the fact that those darb and dark areas I see, He has already redeemed. And from that standpoint I should be day dreaming of what’s beyond.

The book is actually an encourager to invest on my relationship FIRST with God. The Lord of all love that encompasses any types of horizontal relationships encourages me to trust in Him. To entrust my daydreams and dreams with Him. Including the nightmares that go in the night dreams.

My God who understands human seasons also promises to be bringing in something new EVERY SINGLE day – new year or not. As the book compared the healthy day dreaming like this:

   “If you have a vision for decorating your house, you buy decorating magazines                                                                    and pore over them until you get the idea of what you want to do.”

In the same way, God pictures my life full and victorious, I know He has something in store for me beyond any possible mess. But I do need to get that magazine – to follow His blueprint, to dream His dream, to make His joy mine – that I may be able to enjoy ANY season without a wavering joy or peace. I need to get the idea of what He has in store for me. The blind spots I cannot look beyond on is free for my imagination to play on.

Intro to 2015 significant words : daydream, stimulate your imagination, trust God.


2014 .. and beyond

I’m not one for resolutions. I’ve even knocked over my bucket list dozen times. I just pick it up every once in a while just to have “something” to share for when it’s socially needed.

2014 is an odd year for me. It started out really well. But i guess things fade naturally.

I’m not one to go with changes easily – but I face it rather strongly the way I know it – solo.

I’m not one also healthy for raw conversations on confrontations. Most of the time, I hurt and will hurt people around me once i speak my thoughts. So I’d rather keep it to myself. All these, after all, will naturally fade. May I just plug in, though, that this is not a lesson I learned from the book.. Matter of fact, the book encourages to pursue a relationship (platonic and beyond of course) despite the truth of the pain in any relationships there could be. But I don’t develop over night. I retreat when pain is real.

But for what fades out I am doing hands off. It seems that the tighter you try to hold the fine sands in your hand, the faster  they all seem to fall off. I guess it’s better to sit back and watch the sands fall from my hands and be grateful for who and what and which ones chose to hang on.

I am yet to wrap up blessing and woes and tie them up in a bundle of prayer.

A prayer of thankfulness for whatever blessing and woes I may have had this year is a sure first aid kit I may need in the next journey.

Besides there’s the hormones to consider, my psyche and sure my EQ.